The first weekend with just the kids and I just got over. You know how I´m a bit idealistic. I thought, wow, this will be so fun, we´ll play games, watch a couple movies, Louise will be wowed with what a cool girl I am and Alexis will be thrilled with my athletic ability. Wrong, oh so wrong.
I didn´t factor in that the kids might feel weird being alone with me for the first time or how much they might miss their parents and how that pain might be projected on me. To say the least, I was tested. There were tears and yelling, the cat was attacked by dogs and my backbone suddenly seems to be made of rubber.
At least there´s only one way to go from here, up. I need to get the rules solidified with Catherine so I have something to fall back on in a tight spot. I need to find out if there is any vegetable the kids will actually eat, so they don´t live on cheese, candy and cold cuts. I guess being an au pair is actually a job, who knew?
But, I´m moving on. A good phone call with mom and dad and I´m back on the rickety track I started travelling. I´ve been asking myself a lot this weekend, "why am I here? Why would I want to leave everyone who loves me the most and knows me the best to start over with nothing?" I realized the answer is not to be an au pair. I want to travel, meet knew people and learn a new language. That is what I have to focus on.
With that, I have basketball tomorrow night, my first spanish class Tuesday morning and this American guy Paul, who´s been a friend of Rigualt au pairs for years, is taking me around to see the Pamplona night life Tuesday night. My first trip will be from October 12th-15th. The fam goes to London on holiday then. Catherine felt so bad because she didn´t know London was one of my must sees. She even tried to get me a ticket after I got here, isn´t that nice? Anyhow, I´m thinking Madrid or Brcelona that weekend. Any suggestions?
I´m pretty tired, so I better be off to bed. Write me if you have time, I need it right now! Love to all.
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